Gonna Save The World Today
I nestle my wet, swollen head into the soft car seat,
which is not your face.
Cold glass windshield burns holes in my feet,
which have never been nailed to a cross.
Oh, sweet monotony!
Brush me with lilac strokes
and rough palms again.
Steal from me the dreams I do not need,
the cigarettes I'm too young to smoke.
Drain from me my mad passion for life,
and my screaming love of the naked boy beside me
Rape me of my ambitions to see a New York City sunrise
and my desperate fears of dying.
Oh, sweet monotony!
Paint me with neon pestilence, and florescent ignorance.
Make me blind when the world is beautiful,
Make me deaf when poets sing.
Flatten the curls in my hair and smear my blue eyeliner,
because neither makes me look as smart as I should be.
Take away the family photo because it makes me sad.
Wreck my Garfunkle tapes, because they make me wild.
Don't ever let me writhe and scream and itch with boredom again.
Don't ever let me love to lay naked in the rain.
Just let me safely follow the crowd and never win, but never lose.
Let me twitch and die and be dead
the body of a snake cut from it's head
leaking
and hurting
and dying
and never understanding why.